Mood: I have had alot of mixed feelings today, and with all the shit that went down I am suprised about how good I feel right now.
So life really changed for me in the last 24hrs. From the time I wrote my last post, I have lost my Car, My home, and most likley my job (No car=No job, delivering pizzas). This all began with a bad relationship with my parents in general, and the trip out to Victorville for 420 fest. 420 fest was ok, the venue kinda sucked, and we didn't get to see all the artist we wanted to see, like SHOWTEK! But besides that I got to spend alot of time with my girlfreind this weekend which made me happy. Heading back from Victorville my car, the "Champ" finally failed. My car is dead, but i'll take care of it tomorrow. And the last thing that happened was that I woke up to my dad pissed while taking a nap when i got home. He was pissed about the whole car situation, and me goin to Victorville last Night. He broke my laptop, and called the police to escort me out of my house. I felt pretty Damn shitty today, but currently right now I feel good and am in high spirits to make it through life succesfully. I love the people around me in life, and would do anything for them. I am staying with the Schechters Right now, they always said they would never let me be homeless. They are very close to me, a random family pretty much that have meant alot to me the past few years.
My parents are good people, but we have never clicked that well in life since they adopted me. I had a conversation with my dad steve about and hour ago, and he ask that we no longer talk over the phone and jus communicate through E-mail, but thats fair. I will have to stop by my house soon to gather my belonging's.
As for T and I it was really good to spend the weekend with her because it's been harder for us to see eachother since, she moved out of her Dad's place and lost her car temporarily for this month. On top of that, I lost my car as well today so its goin to be even a little harder for a lil. But we were talking alot today, over the phone since she left this morning and were more than strong. We plan to go out this weekend some time. "Nightmare On Elm Street" comes out! ha. I miss her all the time when I cant spend time with her, otherwise always thinking of her.
Well as much as I feel good right now, I don't kno why, it wasn't the best of days, but thats the mystery about me. I still kno it's gunna be a long, hard road for me. But I can make it happen, feeling aightt. Jus day by day u know.
So life really changed for me in the last 24hrs. From the time I wrote my last post, I have lost my Car, My home, and most likley my job (No car=No job, delivering pizzas). This all began with a bad relationship with my parents in general, and the trip out to Victorville for 420 fest. 420 fest was ok, the venue kinda sucked, and we didn't get to see all the artist we wanted to see, like SHOWTEK! But besides that I got to spend alot of time with my girlfreind this weekend which made me happy. Heading back from Victorville my car, the "Champ" finally failed. My car is dead, but i'll take care of it tomorrow. And the last thing that happened was that I woke up to my dad pissed while taking a nap when i got home. He was pissed about the whole car situation, and me goin to Victorville last Night. He broke my laptop, and called the police to escort me out of my house. I felt pretty Damn shitty today, but currently right now I feel good and am in high spirits to make it through life succesfully. I love the people around me in life, and would do anything for them. I am staying with the Schechters Right now, they always said they would never let me be homeless. They are very close to me, a random family pretty much that have meant alot to me the past few years.
My parents are good people, but we have never clicked that well in life since they adopted me. I had a conversation with my dad steve about and hour ago, and he ask that we no longer talk over the phone and jus communicate through E-mail, but thats fair. I will have to stop by my house soon to gather my belonging's.
As for T and I it was really good to spend the weekend with her because it's been harder for us to see eachother since, she moved out of her Dad's place and lost her car temporarily for this month. On top of that, I lost my car as well today so its goin to be even a little harder for a lil. But we were talking alot today, over the phone since she left this morning and were more than strong. We plan to go out this weekend some time. "Nightmare On Elm Street" comes out! ha. I miss her all the time when I cant spend time with her, otherwise always thinking of her.
Well as much as I feel good right now, I don't kno why, it wasn't the best of days, but thats the mystery about me. I still kno it's gunna be a long, hard road for me. But I can make it happen, feeling aightt. Jus day by day u know.
I love you so much babe! I know that you can do ANYTHING you want because you have such a strong mindset. Today was so hard, but, and i know you are thinking this, think of it as a positive thing. You are finally letting go what was holding you down, your parent. Now you only have yourself to prove to, and not your parents.
ReplyDeleteJust concentrate on yourself right now babe. I already know you'll be, as you say, "ballin" in the next year for sure. You'll have a car, a nice job, and I'll be living in pico!
Things will be amazing for us in the long run babe and it's just an adventure getting there.
Thanks baby. That means the world to me, and it will be amaizing.Our adventure has just begun!
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